I know, stupid question, right? I'm not so sure. A big part of me honestly doesn't think I have a problem. Yes, I go to therapy and group and have been to treatment. But I'm still not sure. The first time I admitted it was by force in a treatment facility. I didn't mean it. And sometimes when I say it now, it still feels weird and wrong. Like I'm a phony. I don't have a problem. I just like to be thin and eat in a specific way. Is that a crime? I know this isn't very recovery oriented but I honestly spend a lot of time contemplating if I'm recovering from something. Or am I just going through motions and pretending? I'm not even sure I have a disorder.
Stay Strong
xo Aria
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