Measuring Time

" 525,600 minutes. How do you measure, measure a year"

That line from Rent greatly speaks to me. The entire song "seasons of love", discusses how you can accurately measure your life. People with eating disorders do the same with different numbers. The song mentions sunsets and cups of coffee. EDs just don't let those things take prevalence. We measure by pounds lost, calories eaten, hours of exercise. That's how we measure our years. The 525,000 minutes feel like twice that. They are torture. They aren't counted by how much time we spend with frieda, the amount of bridges built. No we do it by the amount of self hatred. Which is no better than not counting at all. Recovery is relearning how to count. How to count and figure it out later. Not to live with the numbers but live for them. There is a way to count and live if you count the right things.

Stay Strong
xo Aria